Saturday, July 30, 2011

It has been so long since I wrote something here. Been busy, and sorts. I feel really tired, weary, exhausted, fatigued, frazzled, exhausted, drained, worn out, bushed, beat, haggard and etc... psychically and mentally. I find myself getting angry at everything. Feeling of wanting to cry all the time. What the hell? In fact, I'm feeling like punching the crap outta... a punching bag of course. I think I need a holiday really badly. I need to escape and the thought of a holiday would be nice but what sucks is when you realize you have to go back. It's like back to square one fml. 


B.T.W, we know how the saying goes "some people build walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down". Quite true I would say. I built a wall around myself to make sure I don't get hurt.. erm... long time ago.. but wishing people to come and break it. But nobody warned me that people may come to break the wall with wrong intentions. Result? You hurt yourself even more. Now, I realize my wall is growing taller and thicker. It no longer wanting people to break it but to make sure I wouldn't be harmed. I guess I'm adapting the trust no one's principal. I would like to thank all those people in my life for the contributions. I love y'all as much for what y'all did.


As I'm typing, I'm contemplating should I post an update of my blog on my twitter and facebook. I thought it seems like forcing people to come visit and how people wouldn't like to read something that is so sad. This also I have to thank my beloved friends who distanced me because how emo I can get. Then again, it's ok.. everyone has it's day. Mine just yet to arrive. So I hereby decided to post whatever update I want. HAHA. And if you decided to treat me as non-existence, feel free to remove me.


A girl doesn't need anyone who doesn't need her - Marilyn Monroe